Friends and Kitties!
Do all of you feel a warm glow? You do? Excellent. It's cos I'm so grateful for all your good thoughts, sweet comments, and concerned emails generated by last week's semi-crazed post. Sometimes when you're at wits' end the best thing to do is shout out for help and let your peeps get your back.
Without going into all the gory details, Scott is bi-polar and one of his Mania triggers is the change in seasons. Add to that a major epiphany about his (mentally abusive) childhood and he swung into full frenetic mode about a month ago; not sleeping, not eating, constantly talking, hyper-critical, paranoid and loud. It's exhausting. Fortunately, it usually doesn't last too long, but while it does he's incredibly intense and demanding. Naturally, we fight, because I don't put up with crap from anybody--but I should listen to a friend of mine's advice: "don't argue with crazy people" because there's no reasoning with somebody in a manic frame of mind. I do it anyway--I can't help myself--I must be just as crazy. And last Saturday we had a epic barney, precipitating my frantic posting(s).
As per the past, this particular swing moderated quickly. I think half the problem in the manic phase is the delusional behavior brought on by sleep deprivation, so as soon as we figured this out (duh!) and he took meds to help with that he was able to ramp down. It's tough for me, but it's even tougher for him...he has to live with himself 24/7. Anyway, things are better, and strange as it may seem we have some extremely insightful "conversations" during these periods.
I've had some friends ask me why I stay, and it's because I know that this behavior isn't Scott, it's his illness. My Scott is a funny, kind, and wildly creative person who mentally challenges me every day. He is the smartest person I know; the way his brain is wired enables him to make huge imaginative leaps which I find fascinating. I am beguiled by the way that man thinks, and plus, I love him to bits. So I hold on and put my head down when he's nuts--and allow myself to ask for support weathering the storm.
All I can say is you guys are the best bunch of pals in the world.
Thank you, so much.
Now, go forth, and Have a Happy Sunday, and a Great Week!
XX Sheebie XX
*You thought the cats had a lot of nick-names? They've got nothing on me. I'm the Queen of Aliases.